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If only I could disappear and softly fade away If only there weren't others asking me to stay If only they could know what piercing pain it is to trudge along Day after day the bloody pain to carry on If only they'd stop seeing worth that really isn't there If only I could disappear and not hurt anyone The burning pain would chill and fade like blazing sun into the sea

This is not the kind of sadness that is washed away with tears This sadness comes like the ominous blackness of the most terrifying storm Panic overwhelms me and the tears just won't come It's impossible to cry when your heart and soul are numb

Cut after cut Cry after cry Salty tears in the wounds Till there's no tears to cry My heart has endured So manythat it's Shredded to pieces I'm so shredded inside There's no feelings left to hide Only numbness blows Over me like the fierce Winds of a storm I am pelted with sand Till I can't take anymore But there's no escape Nowhere to go For the raging storm Is in the pit of my soul

On a razor's edge of a bottomless pit Afraid to look or take a breath I close my eyes in shame Standing on the precipice Decision time is now To take the leap or stand and weep Where seething demons fear to creep I search for my escape

Embrace the pain It absorbs the shock When plummeting downhill You know it's gonna hurt When you finally hit the rocks Loosen up and free fall So you won't get broken up Quite so bad - Ain't it sad? STUPID FOOL! Trusting, hope, believing All is kind and sweet and good Your shredded heart bleeds hope and trust Blood is dust... The spiteful wind chased it to the four corners Embrace? Nothing left, not a trace. Sweet numbness is the brush That paints a smile upon your face.